As a single person, starting out yet another new year relationshipless and with no prospects of any future relationships, it can be hard to believe that anyone could ever love me. It’s hard to believe that I’m worth it. When I can’t even control myself around some leftover cookies, I feel like I’m utterly hopeless and those thoughts of “why even bother” begin to creep in. Those thoughts that say “you’ll never be pretty enough,” “you’ll never be thin enough,” “you’ll never be enough.” Those are the lies that I try so hard to fight back against. And that fight is impossible without Jesus by my side.
Matthew 10:29-31 “Are not two sparrows sold for a copper coin? And not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”
In those moments (when I feel inadequate, self conscious, and unworthy) all of my insecurities about being single rush to the surface and I’m overwhelmed by emotions tied to my dwindling hope of a brighter future. Those are the moments when I need to remember to seek the truth in God’s word, rather than listening to the lies of the world.